A Love Letter to the Playlist of My Life
Of all the relationships I have had in my life, ours has been the most intimate and fulfilling. There is no other companion with whom you compare. It is without hesitation that I can say that I cannot imagine my life without you.
As Valentine’s Day nears, I am thinking back on our love affair and all of the special memories we have shared.
I remember joyfully dancing in the living room with my sister as my dad cranked Tom Tom Club’s “Genius of Love” on his hi-fi stereo. I’m in heaven…
I remember Christopher Cross’s “Sailing” on the radio on warm days playing on a Delaware beach as my mom lay sunbathing.
I remember singing and dancing to Madonna’s “Like a Virgin” in Theresa’s basement in Sixth Grade.
There were the dark days of my adolescence, hidden away in my room with Depeche Mode’s “Blasphemous Rumors” played over and over.
I will never forget Rob Base’s “It Takes Two” and Young MC’s “Bust a Move” thumping away on drives to nowhere in Lincoln’s Ford Escort. If you want it, you got it…
I remember many roads driven way too fast to Kenny Loggins’ “Danger Zone” because…Top Gun.
I remember nights of car dancing with Gundi to Usher’s “Yeah” and so many others.
It is with bittersweet fondness that I remember Toad the Wet Sprocket’s “Dulcinea” album in the background while sharing a love so deep with someone that its songs still awaken the electricity discovered with a man it took way too long to find, and way too fast to lose.
While Beyonce and I are not compatible, I cannot help but love the memory I have of my daughter as a baby holding herself up by the coffee table and dancing with pure joy for the very first time to “Crazy in Love” — her little diapered butt bouncing enthusiastically up and down.
Discovering a new artist is like the beautiful moments of newfound love. I hang on your every word, every note, and immerse myself in the essence of you — like Andrew Belle’s “Dive Deep” that resonates within my soul and reminds me of the vulnerability of loving completely. This is my heart, dive deep, you have something that I want to keep.
With just a few notes, I am transported by you to another time, and reminded of people I have known, the people I have not yet met, but who my heart still desperately seeks, and the person I have been before and still long to be.
Woven throughout every moment in my life, shuffled and played on repeat, you have been there playing along. You have been there during the most joyful of times, playing in the background as I fell in love, and embracing me through the most painful of times when love has been lost. I challenge you to find any woman who has not howled Gloria Gaynor’s “I Will Survive” in the throws of heartbreak.
You fill my silences when the rest of the world becomes too much, and your lyrics haunt me and drown out my own voice when it needs quieted. You are my constant companion, always in my ear.
As Amber Run’s “Fickle Game” so eloquently reminds me, life is fickle, but there is nothing fickle about what we share.
I have loved you as long as I can remember. I love you now. I will love you always.